New at Emergency Room

I just got transferred from a different hospital as I requested since we moved from Cainta Rizal to Marikina. From Angono General Hospital, I am transferred 3 days ago to Casimiro Memorial Hospital at Montalban. I was surprised to know at first that my request was granted but then I am happy because I'll be saving half of my transportation expenses but nevertheless, I am deeply saddened since I'll be leaving my friends who already gained my trust.

When I came in Casimiro I was oriented by one of the nurse supervisor and then told me that they lack nurse at Emergency Room, I was introduced to different nurses all over the place and so I showed my half full half empty smile just to show my courtesy among my colleagues. I entered this one big room with two long tables are for nurses and not far apart are for doctors. They have vast room covered with green heavy curtains for each patients privacy. They have doctors quarter, pantry room and two separate comfort room for patients and nurses. I am amazed by the structure and the cleanliness since the hospital was just built a few years ago.

I was introduced to our charge nurse, the person who oversees all the subordinate nurses like me and she introduced me as well to the nurses on duty. They taught me the basics of how managing patients going to ER. There is a word TRIAGE for whose patient needed to be first on line rather than wait, and also to patients who just need a follow up check up so we transfer them politely at Out Patient Department. It was my first day that I managed to give 3 skin test for Anti Tetanus and give them their shots intramuscularly. I also assisted the resident on duty for suturing the patient, I don't have any idea what to do but then the doctor is so nice that she guided me in everything even though she's still the one who has to suture.

On my second day, I first met the doctor whom they're telling me to beware with. They told me that she doesn't trust other nurses except only for the charge nurse. I wonder why she thinks like that. Did anyone tried to sew her in jail because of a negligent nurse per se? But then I want to gain her trust, I want to prove her that we're not all foolish as what she thinks. She might be a doctor and she might think of us as a lowly nurse. But I know we move faster than her and I only listen to her as she explains to the patient and to the relative.

I want to learn more. Good thing  I am assigned at ER. I know this place has full of knowledge waiting to be stored in my brain. I promise not to be late anymore. 

The Best View In Life

Before I go to work this evening, I was contemplating about the things I really want to do in life. I am a bit torn to the things I want versus the things God has planned for my life. And lastly, I am thinking what is that the great future I am really waiting  for. Is that the best or there’s more which I don’t know yet but I am waiting.. for an adventure.

You all know that I am nurse by profession, and more than that I want to write, speak in public, cook and bake, entrepreneurship, travel local and abroad, spend time with my family and friends, help and encourage people. I want to inspire. I want people to see that there is hope and light in this world. I’m not the answer but Jesus.

I dream of having a good life since I was a child. Big house and a sports car. I want to achieve those things in life for me and my family but still I don’t want to get lost with God’s plan for me. I know in my heart that I belong in the medical field. God is using my hands, talent, skills and knowledge to be the light in the hospital, in the pediatric ward, or in the ICU.

But nonetheless, I am so blessed apart from God. All this trials I am facing, all this questions unanswered brings excitement in my life. I hate the boredom and routines so this path that I may be walking may not be a straight path but could be sometimes crooked like a river. I may still commit mistakes and errors in life but I know God’s mercy is never ending and His grace is suffice for my everyday mountain trekking. This is the life I wanted and I know this is not a roadblock but rather the trail I am walking upwards would give me the best view in life, view on top.

One Step Closer

It’s been 3 years since I graduated Bachelor of Science in Nursing. I am so excited at that the time. I remember feeling closer to reach my dreams, I looked ahead with hope and courage that someday I would be able to help my family and to save ourselves from poverty. I had that goal in my mind. I took the nursing licensure without fear that I will fail the board exams, I am confident for everything I’ve learned in school is enough for me to pass. And yes I did. I worked in a BPO company while waiting for my license, I know that I have to earn money for survival I resigned as a call center agent after I save enough money for my nursing training. I spend thousand of my savings to train for dialysis knowing that its one of a high paying jobs abroad. And I love the easy workload there so I finished it in no time and had my certificate afterwards. What I didn’t know is the struggles ahead of me which I haven’t experienced in my life before. I entered the life of being a fresh graduate without no one to help me but my own…

Letter for my Future Husband

Letter for my Future Husband

 

June 30, 2014

 

Young as I am right now. I know that I will meet the most imperfect person fitted for me.

 

That's why

 

10 years from now..

 

 

To my loving husband,How was your day? We’ve been together for sometime since we got married. You and I know for sure that we already had lots of disappointments from each other. I remember making this vow of being with you for the rest of my life and I want to reassure you of that. I will never be able to tell how grateful I am to be your wife. Please know that you are a blessing in my life. You make this vast world simpler and happier. We could get through our bad days for everything will come to pass. I want to be honest with you because giving up might become one of our options someday in life. But I will always think twice and will always fight for what is right. I love seeing our kids grow with our guidance and support, stand on their own and be the best of themselves. I know this ride will never be easy for us but I want you to be that only man who will hold my hand and protect me from at all cost. I know you’re tired that’s why I’m here by your side. Good night my husband. Sleep tight. We have another day tomorrow to conquer together.

Love,

Your wife

Homemade Oatmeal Cookies

Homemade Oatmeal Cookies

Okay I just made it because we have lots of quaker oats at home. Since no one bothers to cook it as it is, we thought of disposing it by making lots of oatmeal cookies. Then it became much more attractive in our tastebuds, and we became more creative in eating.
Ingredients

3 cups of oatmeal
1 cup flour
1 cup brown sugar
1 tsp cinnamon
1 stick of butter
2 eggs

Preheat oven at 150 degrees
Then toast 1 cup of oatmeal
Set aside

Mix butter and brown sugar
Mix eggs and flour
Include the cinnamon powder
And lastly mix the 1 cup toasted oatmeal and the other 2 cups.

Mix until evenly distributed
Add a little table salt if desired.

Heat at the oven 150 degrees for 10 mins with both lower and upper lights (heat) then another 150 degrees for 5 mins with the upper heat of the oven only. This will become a chewy version of oatmeals which I love more than the others. Enjoy!

The Future Ahead Of Us

I do wonder where on Earth would life takes me. I wonder. Well, most of the time I really do wonder. I’m not worrying for what tomorrow might bring, all I know is that I have the Lord with me through this journey, the story of my life. I’ve been thinking thoughts If I should stay or should I just stand up and face the reality that the profession that Ive chosen is not a good choice now which before it was. I asked and prayed. Would I just give it up? Or would I still fight for it? But. Its not about what you like or anything to do with fighting. Its about pursuing God’s will for you. He’ll be the one to direct you and show you how wonderful life is.. with Him. Now I have to decide.. I know Ill be missing the place where I feel really comfortable already, people who you could laugh out with. So many things to CHERISH. From the beginning we were all just strangers trying to blend in a world unknown yet but friendship and unity made us stayed. There are so many things that I would wish I would stay the same with this decision I’ve made. Doing the right things is sometimes hard and painful. It hurts that you’ve already known people who will stand beside you but time and challenges will make you apart from each other. Making friends is easy but having some true friends is not. Building a strong relationship is not easy but God is really great for He knows our weaknesses and gives us challenges that would make us strong just for us to trust Him all the time. 

Now Ive finally decided that I wont be staying any longer. Here are the simple things that Id be missing beside the people around me.. RC85 Credit Not Processed, LSRP Inform, Disputes, Audits, ACW, and most especially FOOD DAY!  ) I’m thinking before If I could have the same friends Ive had at work. It seems impossible that’s why. But who knows. And now it saddens me to be apart but we still have to move on. Let everything be treasured in my heart. Every SINGLE DAY is a FUN DAY! I try to prevent being stressed by bad things in this world (stressors). With the help of our puppies at home they would just make you cuddle them and you’ll just simply SMILE.

We have so many dreams in this world, I’ve just realized that there’s so many beautiful things and places in this world which I have just discovered though BING Slide Show, the only internet I have on the floor. There’s a lot of exciting places I wanna see. Life is not about being filthy rich. Since you wont be able to bring that to eternal life so its nonsense. Nonsense if you wont use it to share it for a good purpose. We are blessed to become a blessing to others.

With the right blend of FAITH and PRAYERS. I know this will come into place.If you have the COURAGE to have a dream. and if you dont have a dream, there’s no way to make your dream come true. By Steve Tyler at American Idol.  DREAM. Dream BIG!

How To Stop Being A NOOB?

Stop Being A NOOB!

All people start from level 1 unless they are from a heritage of being a princess that they dont need to do the “hardwork” before stepping into a ladder of success. We all have our first encounters, our small mistakes whenever we get clumsy and forgetful about the right thing to do. In my field, I am responsible in dealing with real lives (every heartbeat counts). We dont get to have a chance to splurge with your salary coz whenever we start, we start small. For me, its much more worth-it to be at the bottom, we need to climb every time we need to achieve something, climb harder if the rock is much more harder. SACRIFICE alot for the better. There’s some things I learn for the past few days as I start fresh and as NOOB! (for everyones information, it means newbie/beginner)

1. We dont get to complain

Complaining wont do any good. Instead we need to pause and assess the situation. If there is something/someone pissing us off. Its us who needs to back off. Never start a fight.

2. Accept and never curse anyone

It much more better to start your life with humility, even if to the point that we feel oppressed. Be thankful that we are receiving these challenges in life where we learn to persevere, we grow and mature.

3. Keep learning

In every moment that I was in my field, I get to do new things since Im just new. there are some things they havent taught me and we’re still the one to be blamed. Its so unfair but we just need to learn from it and never repeat it.

4. Start your day fresh

Dont hold a grudge to anyone. I know its hard. But everyone needs forgiveness, even us. So why dont we start it? Be the start of change we wanted in our workplace.

5. Win-Lose

Remember that even if were new they dont own us, what we do is for sure could affect them. If we dont get angry, they’ll see it and they’ll know that we cant be manipulated and its them who gets affected.

And now after a few days, I can say that I had changed alot! And I can now show infront of them how good theyve trained me to be. Its a bad start but it would always end up good. We dont get to taste success sweetly if we are not the ones who prepared eagerly for the secret ingredients of life that we need to cook and learn before we have the finishing touch of parsley in a plate.

Goodluck to all newbies like me! =)

Handling Failures

There will come to a time where you will meet opportunities. And of course you would gladly grab it there and there without knowing if it was really for you or not. In my case I received an text message for an exam Ive been applying for. Its been a long time already since I started hoping that one day I could take the exam. That one day came to pass, but I didnt make it. I didnt literally pass the exams. I dont know how could I ever cope with that and accept that it is a closed door. I know that I needed to wait, wait for the right time, right place where God has designed me to be. I've already encountered lots of closed closed doors in life, but God promised that whenever God closes a door there will always be a door that opens. All we have to do is surrender everything we have in Him. Let him be in control of our life. And up until now Im waiting. I know there will be a season were I'll blossom as God's creation I could be the best God has created me to be.

To Employers of Domestic Helpers

Rich Kid's' Facebook post of Pinay DH stirs outrage

Browsing my Facebook account and seeing different kinds of bullying from other countries in my own country men. I am not a domestic helper and I don't have any domestic helper relatives abroad. But I am deeply hurt by those people who seems to be proud to say that they're extravagantly rich and could afford to belittle anyone they know.

I want to ask myself why other people looks down on domestic helpers that much as if they are the lowest kind of people? Don't you know that we only have corrupt politicians but Philippines can be richer than your country. Who knows?

But then I know there's a reason why things happen the way we don't want to. We are building our deep and strong character of perseverance to achieve our dreams, courage to fight despite of the opposition, hope that we are on the right track, and faith to believe that there is nothing impossible with God.

We may not be as rich as what these people have in the world but we know we are blessed more than all the material things in the world could offer. Yes, we can be your domestic helper, "your Filipina" but you will never own our love for our God, our love for our families, our love for our friends, our love even for the strangers, and our love for our country. We may go to different countries to work hard for a living but we would ALL chose to go back and live in a paradise of faith.

Weight Loss for Starters

1. Must-goal for losing weight!

We all want to look good and gorgeous. We want to be able to wear those skinny jeans and have some flat tummies under our shirt. And most of all, be able to wear that flattering dress without needing to hide some fats in our stomach, behind our bra's. well.. Thats a good reason for starters. Though the real concentration of this is we really need to lose weight coz we ought to take care of ourselves. We tend to give in our food cravings and addictions thats sometimes lead to glutton. Food is a powerful tool that most of us thinks could help whenever we are sad, depressed, or even overjoyed. That is something we need to change first before we start on our real battle, and that is our attitude.Attitude- a position of the body or manner of carrying oneself.
So its says there, how we carry ourselves. Lets say for example we tend to be brought up in a family where not emptying your plate even if were already full leads to a punishment? We grow up having that mentality now to finish our plate coz we think that billions of people doesnt have any food to eat. Well i dont have anything against that lesson coz I myself does that. Now theres just a bad part for that. Since we tend to finish our plate despite when our body is telling us to stop now comes OVEREATING which leads to gaining weight. And for that being that repetitively leads to additional weight over time and now here pops your OVERWEIGHT body and in extremes is obesity.
This is just my blog for starters like me, i dont wanna confuse myself or anyone else of my goal as to have a body like VS angels coz honestly, I dont have those small frame bones though I have there height but thats all. All I want is to have a healthy lifestyle not having headaches after eating an oily meal nor having a bloated stomach after eating a bunch of food. We dont want to suffer in the end from illness just because we, ourselves didnt take care of our OWN body since we are the ones who could only do. Not the president nor your boyfriend. Its still our choice. The decision still lies on us. So goodluck to everyone of us! I want to see change in my attitude and just next to my weight.

Banana and Apple

I found a place along Katipunan Avenue that made me write a blog.  The place we found was so cozy and laid back. The ambiance was just so perfect for people who wants to have a colorful life. It's more happier if you have a good company of people to bring along with you. I love having long conversations with people I trust that's why this place could make you stay for hours talking over their slice of cake.

These are my favorites!

Banoffee pie- a slice of it makes my tastebuds feel like they are in cloud 9. I tasted the sweetness of  their icing next comes the natural slices of banana and some saltiness of their crushed graham at the bottom layer. The dark chocolates on top mixed with the banoffee pie made the dessert blend perfectly which made it an overall as not too sweet. I find it special among the other cakes by the "not too sweet" ending for this just makes it perfect.

Roll ups lasagna- heaven! I just love whenever I taste so many cheese that were generously placed in a single plate and to add, another generously topped with tomato sauce that tastes good as well, its not so Filipino sweet and not so Italian. They put 2 roll ups of lasagna which will make you full just even after finishing 1 roll ups. So couples? Share it with each other.

The idea of them having this kind of set up is pretty great besides the other laid back place I know like coffee shops were you can read books and magazines. In here theres a combination of silene and loudness for gatherings with families and friends. Its not that hard to choose coz they have doors to separate little events from the other customers so you could still choose your own mood.

Bigoli and Fazoli

This was named Fazoli before but for some reason they changed their resto name for something much better, the pizza and pasta.

Must try's!
✔ Tour of Italy- its a mixture of 3 different pasta that really taste good. It was a big help for choosing what pasta to eat so instead of ordering 3 different plates.

✔Mozarella sticks- the chewiest food ever tasted for every bite. They have tomato sauce dip that I is really made from peeled and blended tomatoes. Much healthier than the ones bought in the grocery stores.

I remember seeing lots of couples in this place maybe bec of the ambiance itself is made for lovers who wants to feel being in Europe or in France, capital of love. ♥

Be Careful With My Heart

Honestly I'm not a fan of Sir Chief and Maya neither I'm watching every episode of their love story. But I caught a glimpse photo of their fairytale wedding. And I caught myself saying wow! That girl must be really special and we would want to be treated the same way.

We are living in this world where everything must be fast, everyone seems to be all in a hurry in terms of food, work, I myself is guilty for that, and also in love. I remember reading a verse in the bible saying do not awaken love until its the right time. Im not an exception for having that. We all have our puppy loves, first loves, short term and long term relationships that we all fall in that trap of hurrying everything especially for love. How could we have that decency of a wedding if we ourselves would give up the things we could have treasured until our wedding day.

The world keeps on telling us to give everything for love coz its worth it. Its like losing part of ourselves and expecting something in return. Some have a relationship at an early age because of peer pressure without knowing its real purpose, knowing the end goal of being in a commitment. Some of us felt the need for love without knowing that Jesus have already shown His undying love for us in the cross. True love is where someone is ready to give up their life for us. And that is something we can just find in our recyclable worldy relationships today.

Everyone of us wants to have that fairytale wedding especially for ladies but we forget that we are special, we need respect, we need time, and for us to have that we must be treated with respect. Its not about having an extravagant wedding. All ladies want to have a wedding in the altar with vows, simple as it is. Its not about having a partner who has all the money in the world to show off but rather a person who is dedicated to be there for you til the end, who will listen to you as a friend, comfort you when you needed it the most, protect you at any cost. That's what everyone of us deserves isnt? To start, giving yourself respect would yield the same thing from other people. Likewise, you don't do anything you want others to do to you. Everything that anyone gets too fast loses its likeness after a few days.

So ladies, why lower your standards? We dont aim to please people. We aim to please our Lord. And if He says there's someone for us who give that magical wedding then better believe it. Its not yet too late. Our God keeps His promises to His daughters. And we're one of them! ;D

Am I ready for a commitment?

Being in a relationship is being in a commitment. And thats the first thing we should all know. But for me as I grow up Ive come to learn few things about life and about relationships. We all love to feel loved and to love but then I realized that theres so much more than just being in a relationship and be attached emotionally. I get to learn that investing your time, effort, emotions to someone without really knowing if that really is Gods plan for us is just like going astray, going in our own efforts just to make things work for that relationship. Theres no perfect relationship I know but theres still something that is keeping both lovers together if they have the Lord as the center of their relationship. They have confidence in God that who they have is the best for them. I dont need to rush things right now, coz now I have full confidence in the Lord that He has someone in stored for me as He tries to prepare both of us for that right time.

God is the center of all our relationships even with our family, friends and all the people around us. This is the reason why Jesus became human, not just to redeem us from all our sins but also to show us how we should relate with other people. For simple things like on how to conduct ourselve with humility and love for one another with purity in our hearts.

Being in a commitment is like saying Im ready for marriage. And I'm not ;)

Know Me First

Chiara Marie Fulo Cruz

that is my full name. I was born in March 27, 1991. I am the eldest among the 4 daughters of Marilyn Cruz, my beautiful mother whom I adored alot. I grew up in different cities, first at Marikina City with my grandmother then we moved in Quezon City and stayed there for almost 10 years then we eventually transferred to Cainta Rizal and lived there for 8 years. And now we are currently residing at Marikina City with my grandmother again. There had been ups and downs in my life but all I can say is that I'm learning alot from this journey of mine.

I am a graduate of St. Joseph's College for primary and secondary. I studied Bachelor of Science in Nursing at Arellano University and graduated on April 2011. I passed the Nursing Licensure Exam on that same year. I workd in a BPO company after that while waiting for my PRC license. I met different kinds of people from my colleagues, single mothers, students, entrepreneurs, and alot more. They have different views in life apart from mine. I enjoyed my stay for a few months but I know I had to go back to my first love, nursing. So I decided to risk having no source of income and pursue my profession. I enrolled in Hemodialysis Training at The Medical City knowing that if I finished the training I would have a bigger chance of taking the exams for staff nurse. I've dreamed that one day I would be able to work in their prestige hospital knowing that they have great medical insurance for my beneficiaries, my parents.

I was so eager to achieve the ladder of success to make my parents proud of me. I applied in different hospitals and tried my luck but I grew tired because of disappointments facing me. I experienced for many times going inside the hospital but only to be stopped by the guards at the entrance.  That was devastating for me but yet I still had the courage to continue my treasure hunt for success.

I was blessed to be part of Registered Nurses for Health Enhancement and Local Service (RNHEALS) a program of our government for the over supply of nurses in our country. I interacted with different faces of patients and intellectual doctors and my colleagues. Despite facing big difficulty adjusting with the demands of my work, giving up became one of my option at some point of time but it didn't stop me from learning the art and science of nursing. I didn't stop learning but rather eager to ask them if they could teach me things that I never knew. It was true, experience became my best teacher. I had made few mistakes in my career but that became my foundation. Now I am still working for my fellow Filipino citizens who are less fortunate. Showing them somehow that there is still hope became my passion, my purpose. And now I wanted to share to my online readers the great excitement to what I'm about to experience more in life.

Living in uncertainty and the unknown gives brightness to my life. There will always be obstacles to conquer, battle to be won, and triumph to be enjoyed. And I guess life will never be borinCheck more of my blogs atg.